When you are interpreting associations after a meditation, it is important to analyse who exactly in you is so afraid of Eternity. A similar method of self-examination on the topic “Who am I?” and related techniques have been used for a long time in the spiritual and mystical schools of different peoples and in different religious systems. They have been known since ancient times and they were especially common among many people in ancient India and the countries of the East. They were practiced, for example, by the ancient yogis, Sufis, and shamans.
This technique, as you remember, involves unwinding thoughts on the topic “Who am I?” in a meditative state where it is necessary to ask yourself a new mental question after each of your mental answers. And to observe what thoughts come, to feel their nature, and to ask yourself more often, “Who is the one that is answering in me?” It is desirable that all thoughts flow smoothly without much reflection or concentration. When a thought comes, we meet it immediately with a question and see it off with the first answer that comes to mind. But the main thing is to submerge deeper and deeper into yourself.
Anastasia: Yes, this is an interesting technique of recognising thoughts and sensations in order to understand yourself and who dominates in your consciousness. It does help to sort yourself out, to separate the wheat from the chaff. I remember the guys sharing their impressions about this technique. So many variations could be heard, they had so many ways to corner their Animal nature. They asked, “Who am I?” “Who is asking the question?” “Am I a body?” “But the body is mortal.” “I’m a student.” “But the student is a status.” “I am the one who is learning.” “But who is learning?” “I’m a human being.” “But who in me is calling me a human being and why?” “I am a human being who loves people.” “But who in me loves?” “I have a body.” “But who are you who has the body?” “The body is not me, but I’m in it.” “And who is this I?” “Go to hell… I is I, the whole and indivisible.” So the Animal nature also has a “sense of humour.” This is a very good exercise that helps get to your deepest “I”, to your fears and problems.
Rigden: Yes, the Animal nature is both an adversity and a school of wisdom. Being aware of whose side such thoughts come, from where this or that problem appears, this or that root of fear, you realise how to get rid of it and how to control your condition. If this meditative technique of self-examination is done correctly, afterwards there appears acuity and clarity of awareness.
As I have already mentioned, there are significant differences between the surface feelings emanating from the Animal nature and the deepest feelings emanating from the Spiritual nature (the true feelings of manifestation of the highest Love). For example, in order to immerse yourself into the state of convergence with the Soul during the spiritual practice “Lotus Flower” and to experience the deepest feelings, first of all, your sincerity and your openness to God are needed; you must simply go towards the light of the Soul, no matter what. In this meditation, you build up the deepest feeling of Love for God. In other words, the force emanating from the Soul is used for its intended purpose. Note that a genuine and correct spiritual practice is work with the deepest feelings and not with thoughts. During these moments, the only thing that dominates in a person is the spiritual desire, same as in the Soul.
Anastasia: For the Personality, it is the contact with a pure flow of force coming from the Soul that is important.
“AllatRa” by A. Novykh